A Tasteful Scoop of Studying

Many people say they despise studying. But i'm an anomaly.
I love studying. I adore my time in library, studying. I devour the time i browse books thoroughly and taking notes. I cherish the knowledge that I am getting through that solitary, mind-peaceful activity. There is this privileged of being someone who is able (not mention like) to study.
And no wonder, i have this obsession to expand my education to whole another level: graduate school. The thing is, my father can't afford it. And even though he can, i don't want him to feel he has to bear the pressure and agony funding 2 of his children tuition in united states. Yes, my brother will go to states to get his Mechanical Engineering degree (and i'm breaming with excitement!).
So i decided to take an international student loan with 3.5% APR. But of course, there is a catch. I have to have a co-signer for this loan, and the co-signer has to be a U.S citizen with a good credit. But, they will waive that prerequisite IF i get into a prestigious school (mostly Ivy League). And coincidentally i have always had my eyes for Stanford University. It is a prestigious school in United States besides Harvard, Yale, MIT. And I have a common mission and vision with them. I felt connected instantaneously and knew that i belong there. For all my life, I have never been rejected by any school. But this one is a quite huge deal, and i hope i can get into it.
I am doing my internship, it is stepping to total 70hours which means i need another 80hours to finish it (and i will be in the next 2 weeks). And after that i decide to take a GMAT preparation class in UMass while enriching my vocabularies by reading New York Times, The Economist, and Smart Money.
I am telling you, i have this adequate inability in vocabularies and grammar. So i really have to work on it really hard. I want to take my GMAT in September/October and i hope i can do it because the deadline for the form is either in 7 october or 7 January. The sooner the better, because that means sonner university application decision.
I am doubting my ability to apply in October just because by that time i would not have an adequate community engagement or job (please, god, im just an international student!). so I am thinking to make some in my last fall semester. And i hope i can do it :)
Thank god my volunteering activities help my resume this time. Oh geez...
Why Graduate school?
Well, my original plan was to work for 1-2years and then go back to Indonesia a.s.a.p to build my non-profit organization and executing all my ideas that i have been putting in my scrap book. But then again, If i want to have a stronger networking and vision, i have to have a more advanced education in the first place which i am trying to pursue. With Stanford as my educational background, i can acquire significant, not only networking but also serious trust among indonesian people that i am trying to help. I seriously want to do something for my country. And i hope stanford wants to take part. Even though i were not get accepted, things will not change. I still am going to save my country.

p.s: Anyway, I am going to library tomorrow. i hope everything is going well (in terms of determination). :)